Things

1. I didn't mean to imply that my sister isn't really ever sad or depressed, or that her feelings are more shallow than mine. I just meant that the level of concern for her was higher and that made me feel worse. Also, she is a great sister and I talked to her a bit yesterday and at least now I have a little more will to go on - it is like her talking to me gave me an extra spurt of juice that I really, really needed for the day. I probably wouldn't have woken up in the morning on time without her, I would have been too depressed to care about getting to school.

2. She said something about her friend about the "unnameable, vague weight" holding her back. That is basically what I feel.

3. But also empty. So both nonexistent and heavier than anything. This doesn't make sense. My feelings are clearly paradoxical bullshit.

4. I like music. If I listen to it all the time, I'll be happy! Right? I made a ton of mixes. They are good. If I had readers, I would share them with you. (This blog is mental masturbation. It is an interaction with myself only. That is okay though.)

5. I don't know if I want to exist more or less but this is not a nice in between stage.

Current Mix:

A History Of Lovers Iron & Wine

Story Of Isaac (Leonard Cohen) Mirah & The Black Cat Orchestra

The Mariner's Revenge Song The Decemberists

The Sun Goes Down and the World Goes Dancing Magnetic Fields

King Of Carrot Flowers Part 1 Neutral Milk Hotel

Clark Gable The Postal Service

Mary Ann regina spektor

Fairytale Sara Bareilles

Celebration Guns Stars

John Wayne Gacy, Jr. Sufjan Stevens

Failure Laura Marling

Wet Blanket Metric

Margaret vs. Pauline Neko Case

Ride Liz Phair

Ha Ha Mates Of State

Hello Resolven Beulah

Voodoo recap time!

I went to the Voodoo Experience at City Park this weekend and it was great and I want to tell you, my non-existent readers, ALL about it.

This was my original plan:

Friday:
5:40 The Black Keys

Got there in time to see a little bit, wasn't anything particularly memorable considering I was there for like five minutes.

6:00 MyNameIsJohnMichael

Left The Black Keys early to make it to MyNameIsJohnMichael, and they were finished already! They must have played just a thirty-minute set or something.

8:00 Justice

Really truly totally awesometastically awesome! So much fun and awesome.... DISCO! DISCO DISCO! Was an hour and a half, couldn't hear a thing afterwards.

8:50 Fischerspooner

Didn't get to see. :( Was over by the time Justice finished.

Saturday:
1:15 Black Lips

Missed. :(

3:15 Mates of State

Aaaah! So great, so happymaking, so adorable and just looooooove. God. They were really amazing.

4:50 Gogol Bordello

Fun, but only song I knew was "Start Wearing Purple!" and we had left the crowd by then. Still pretty awesome.

6:30 Wolfmother

I think we just didn't feel like seeing them.

7:35 Jane's Addiction

Haha completely ridiculous. We left about 8:15, we didn't really feel like staying for the whole set.

9:00 KISS

Hahah, no. We didn't wait around for them.

Sunday:
2:15 The Pogues

Play practice... sigh.

3:15 Widespread Panic

Play practice...

4:15 Squirrel Nut Zippers

Play practice.

5:45 The Flaming Lips

So awesome!!!! Due to cellular complications I ended up alone during this show but it was just so great it was like a giant party and Wayne Coyne was in a hamsterball and everybody was happy and also they came out of a vagina at the beginning.

7:00 Lenny Kravitz

Did not see due to parents wanting my friends home early. Stupid.

Anyway I am at school now and about five thousand times less happy.

Bands I Have Seen

This post will stay here and be updated.

stars 08/04/06
the polyphonic spree 08/03/07
regina spektor 08/04/07
foxtail somersault 08/01/08
sofia talvik 08/01/08
bon iver 08/07/09
andrew bird 08/07/09
ben folds 08/07/09
the decemberists 08/07/09
glasvegas 08/08/09
neko case 08/09/09
justice 10/30/09
mates of state 10/31/09
gogol bordello 10/31/09
jane's addiction 10/31/09
the flaming lips 11/01/09